Oh, Split Enz, when I saw this song was next on my track list, I kinda just shrugged my shoulders. I didn’t recognize your name or the song. And when it started playing, seemed like a nice enough dour New Wave song, but again, nothing. And then that chorus, and I was like “Oh yeah! I’ve heard this song!” Unfortunately, that’s the extent of my knowledge of this one. I love that chorus, I truly do, but in terms of this blog, I have no idea how I know this song.
Now, I will say, that lyric of “I don’t know why sometimes I get frightened” definitely hits me where I live, Split Enz. That’s been a recurring theme in my life for as long as I can remember. Anxiety was just the name of the game, and in college I graduated to panic attacks, made worse by heavy drinking. It wasn’t until maybe ten years ago that I discovered there was a name for it (generalized anxiety disorder). Which was a relief that it wasn’t just in my head (you know what I mean, Split Enz), and finally, FINALLY I knew why sometimes (many times) I got frightened.
These days, it tends to be a mild annoyance rather than a full-blown mental nuclear disaster, but recent events involving folks who are kinda awful have triggered some of those bad old days where I used to have to just sit and stare at the chair in front of me or my desk or the floor for fear of running out of the room screaming and making a complete ass of myself. Maybe we’ll chat about it more down the road, Split Enz. For now, thanks for surprising me with this song and making being scared sound pretty darn pleasant.