Oh, Tom Petty, this was one of the very first songs I ever recorded by you. Â And I love both the sound and the sentiment. Â But regarding the latter, I’m afraid I do back down. Â I’d like to tell you I’ve got a backbone, Tom Petty, but I think this year’s put things in perspective for me, that perspective being that I’m a bit of a coward. Â I’ve talked before about my anxiety, which has been the worst it’s ever been since college. Â Most of it stems from work, where I used to not back down. Â But I’ve been told that if I don’t back down, I won’t have a job. Â So I’ve backed down. Â Like way back. Â Now whenever I’m not in my office, I feel like a mouse scuttling along a baseboard trying to get to where I’m going before I’m pounced on.
It’s a sucky thing to be diagnosed as a coward. Â Like, that’s not the clinical term, Tom Petty, but having the anxiety that I do, it means I’m constantly in the “flight” portion of “fight or flight”. Â Just thinking about my anxiety is giving me more anxiety. Â I’m literally scared of myself, Tom Petty. Â Which kind of makes it sound like maybe I’m this bad-ass who doesn’t know what I’m going to do next, but no, that’s not it. Â I know exactly what I’m going to do. Â I’m going to back down. Â It’s all a bit humiliating, but you and the rest of my beloved radio stars help get me through the day. Â There definitely ain’t no easy way out, Tom Petty, but I appreciate you being there for me while I’m trying to find it.